``.*___Close your eyes...

Friday, April 28, 2006

How does my blog entry getting lesser and lesser when I got wiser and wiser?

few days ago I got a free tour guide on the luxury houses in singapore from my friend friend who suggust to drive up us to these big houses. There 's a Ridley Park house near Tanglin Road with a string of exotic cars ... there's zonda, many ferraris, porsches, lamborghinis, 2 bentleys parked nose to nose at the front door, misc BMW, Benz, etc etc....top it off with a huge Eagle Statue on the roof of the big gigantic house. my frien told me that the owner of the cars is a good looking young chap. obviously they will topped up wif a question "hey SH , u wan to his gf? if u be his gf , u can choose wat car u will like to drive big time !" haha I dun want coz I will get a headache of wat car to drive 2day ! . I am just wondering is there real friends among them? Big house , empty heart, wat is the use?

my room is small , I may be working in a small wine cafe just a distance near my house wif great colleagues and no owning transportation and no statues to mention. u guess wat ? It's the best . I believe living a simple live means u have lesser things to worry about. Life is simple , then we have time for happiness. Don't get a lot to be happy is the more luckiest person in the world. GOd bless them! I wonder will the wealthy will often thought about this, coz they know been beri rich is like a prison to them. That's why the huge eagle statue in that luxury house look like a caged bird.
We need juz basic neccessarities- how much good stuff can u eat? Juz full will do.
how big u wan house to be : are u that fat?
how many cars do u wan ?:Singapore is too accessible in compare to overseas.
what type of jobs u hold ? : management/business is too much responsible and stressful
statue in high: can u be yourself ? can u choose friends to be true
from my workplace, there's a gal who have a dip and graduate the same year as me and same poly but she is now working in an wine cafe full time and be beri happy . Anyway she is going to get ROM soon.Happy gal she is

Recently reading "The Zahir " by paulo coelho .. review be upcoming

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:13 AM...

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

i went to KL last week and thoughout the weekend.I am so fortunate as I thought -To live in Singapore.

We have systematic road system. Good education (I meant superb!) Low crime rate, good government ETC ETC !
I lived in my aunt place and i felt that it is a let down for me. Many family members squeeze together in a really dirty, messy,small place. No playstation , no PC, no hi tech toy and other singaporean kids stuff.Honestly, I am a singaporean tat's y. Singaporean juz can't get used to really old , stuffy,cranky apartment.Inaccessible location.
My aunt live away from town and in a rented apartment. A 3 storey apartment, but hell, u wish that u will live in 1 room flat but decorated will decent funiture , clean stuff ..

I can't wait to leave but contridictingly, while stepping out of the doorway, I can't bear to leave them. It sparked a curiousity in me that ... y can they be happy the environment they lived in ?

I manage to sort out that Singaporean are so used own so many goodies that other kids in other country can't even imagined. The kids in other country can be satisfied if there is food to eat, clothes to wear and parents to live to.

My kids nieces are so sensible as adult
One of them who is only primary 3 can discuss adult affair with me. He is toking about the decision of the malaysian government not to build the bridge. etc etc etc

Anyway , I stuck in the custom on monday morning... the famous custom jam with billions zillions of motorcycles, malaysian coming to spore to work .
guess wat ? I was amazed by the patience of the malaysians and even amazed y my outblown temper in public with my mum. I am notorious for being no temper at all. Even in the states, no matter how presurized and how people provoked me , I still show "heckcare simply bor chup" expression. everybody knows I am calm like yoga. That morning I actually pull a black long face and ans people in a rude manner. I am even impatient with my mum (sin sin) She actually bought the bus ticket to johor interchange(is cheaper) and from there, we have to take 170 bus to singapore than usual a bus directly to Singapore. U see, when there's a forseenable serious jam in custom when taking 170 , while carrying heavy trolley, u wish that u will rather give someone 100 bucks and long pung their car. Or rather , ask them to hold for me the trolley.
What's more? School kids are the majority. This set me thinking "how the hell can they study if they have to do this every morning?"

I can't help to sympathy them , really. On the other hand , it really change the way I think now, I am really really fortunate no matter wat as long as I am in Singapore.

Anonymous scribbled this at 8:38 AM...

Thursday, April 06, 2006

visit farm mart today which is ber beri near my house at sungei T! i love it ! it is a short distance away but I can immediately felt stress and city away from me !

i see goats and fishes and the rest of the animals like rabbits !
They sell healthy foods there and I hope i can work there too!

This make me thik one thing . I have a dip and still young (and many other cert and experiences working in industry ) and that's will open doors to many career.
One thing : wat should I do ?
Going to be 23 the next few days and really still prompting myself wat to do ! lol

Here's the deal ..
1) working at farm
2)get a degree (this , a eventually way for singaporean kids mind set: me leading a singaporean way ?)
3)back to sea ? (dub this , as I 'm transient to $$$ now !)
4) get a plastic surgery all over and go for audition so that be a SUper Star ??
5) con other people using my fake british accent
6)sit home shake leg
7)get a degree in Vet and be an animal doc and set up a pet shop cum vet clinic (tat's one of my dream ok? )
8)work in zoo ?
9)yesterday , HSA beckon me again .. hey, diff department ok? imagine .. forensic , test for somtik criminal ? u are under arrest !
10)a country club near my house beckon me an offer of a job of Sport officer (darm em' nd do everything from event planning , secretary , poster designing, members calling to downright ad hoc many many for a darm not more than 1.5k ?) nice environment ? chance of meeting GOLDEN turtle playing golf? hmm golf anyone?
11)backpacking down under?

baby i turning soon ..

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:23 AM...

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

I wrote this on the sep 2004

"Where everyday u struck in the traffic, in mrt , in bus..waiting waiting waiting .. reach the work place , I will give a gloomy face because I had experience an unpleasant ride to work. Everyday. Going to work is challenging at first as there are new things to learn but soon , it get dead stagnant. Like prison. prison better huh? I want a place no one knows me. But seems, interpersonal relationship is so complex that I wan to avoid all. Doing temp job all the place, trying to find bits and pieces of myself.Then I finally know something: I am still young. I have enough time to explore, do the thing that is out of your limit , beyond your imagination. Till a certain period to settle down. 9 to 5 job? lol , u still have ample of time to do that in your life. Boredom scared the shit out of me , this is what I have found in 9 to 5 temp job(any). I just can't stick my butt on thaT same place, same chair everyday.Ok, my brain is on my butt. Torturing man! If we are bold and adventurous, we may indeed encounter the risks & dangers. But then, we would develop stable roots in the ground, and grow tall and mighty. Our lives would be rich & dynamic. Every day would open up fresh horizons for us, and we would taste the marrow of life. If we are overly-cautious and self-preserving, it may be possible to avert certain disasters. But you only need one small 'fly' to finish you off. Even if that doesn't happen, we would live a life of fear and suspicion. We would remain small, incapable of benefiting others with the huge potential for growth that's trapped inside us. And what is a life lived vainly slinking around in the shadows? Try not to take everything so seriously. Relax and have fun, add values to ur life. You will find that situations you thought would be horrible may actually turn out to be enjoyable & a blessing in disguise. Remember that a big part of success lies in your attitude. If you convince yourself that things will be horrible, they probably will be. You are the only one who can make the decision to be happy. Regardless of how you may think, you always have this control.Sure, you'll have setbacks along the way, 'Taking risks is scary, but it is not as scary as standing still for 20 years,' 'How many people do you know who are still caught up in doing the same thing, with the same people, day after day, and talking about 'one day' when they find their dreams to arrive? Ordinary people wait for their dreams to show up, and extraordinary people go out and pursue their dreams. Extraordinary people hold themselves accountable for their choices; their actions; their destination. They don't wait for 'one day' because that day is today.' Life is unfathomable and complex. One way or the other, we cannot tell what will come to pass. Risk does not increase simply because we choose to take it. It is ever present in the same amount, whether we trudge intrepidly forward or struggle to remain where we are.So fuel your dreams with the courage to make them real. Allow your fragile heart to love without restraint in order to make it strong. Acknowledge your ignorance so you will continue to learn. And experience the vibrancy of life so that when it ends, you will not be burdened by regret.'Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives.' "

So wat's next for me? After been to disney world been to bahama, these best destination in the world. ... I saw the top 10 destination in the central channel and wat I felt is that "hey, I have been there! That thrilling ride! That beach! that castle! "
I felt like going back ... sob sob ...or shall I move on?
I will nv forget the lst time I step to orlando and head straight to disney land .
The stupidity of not staying on so that I can hang around US for one more month....I can fly to NYC (a must visit if u go US)or chicago to visit my guests, jennifer and christine (jennifer is hot, both sis are hot )or accompany my fellow singaporean friend rachel to visit her aunt..I missed the 2 gals , although they my guest but we had mad time onboard! But ... a one man journey to other states is lonely. I may wow at the complexity of NYC but I have no one to share with. I may think of going to disney world again for free after the contract but....myself????

ok , here's the deal .. wat about backpacking in aus down under next??
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I 'm sick ... whenever I went for interview , they keep asking me .. u dun sound local , can you speak chinese?
I dun believe i slang my ah moh that much after for couple of months ..
i just want to get back my broken english !

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:42 AM...